I have young kids and I feel like I’ve pretty much become isolated from my friends. The ones that have kids live out of state. My best friends don’t have kids so they usually come to me, but they also have their own lives so I don’t want to bother them. And I can’t really do my hobbies. I knew it would be hard with young kids, but I didn’t realize it would be so lonely and without an outlet.
I am a cripple who married a woman who claimed she didn’t want kids, and believed in abortion, until we got married and she missed her birth control and got pregnant, then explained how what she had said when we were dating wasn’t true and while she didn’t want kids and that she believes that other folks can have abortions, she can not herself. Her body her choice you know
Now I’m in a body that’s not physically capable of being a dad, with a wife who doesn’t want to be a mom, but also didn’t want to make a hard decision. One child passed early on and the other has a horrible genetic disease that we fight every day
I feel like I’ve completely lost all control of my life. I have no energy for anything I used to enjoy, nor time or money to do anything but work and take care of the family
Every day I get closer to shooting myself and I don’t see a way out
Order folks are in a similar place, but I at least don’t have a good answer. My answer is a bullet and that’s a really shitty one. I just don’t see any way out and I’m so very tired
One day at a time, my man. One day at a time. I’m up and down w suicide, and your struggles are vastly different than mine but I just want to say I hear you. All I can hope for you is a different tomorrow.