When I can’t find another and run out of savings in a few months, that’s when Ill kill myself.

Honestly did a bit of a trial run last night, fastened a bag over my head and snuggled my stuffed animals on the couch to see what it would be like. It’s definitely something I can go through with if/when it comes to it. Taking other steps to make life less unbearable first, hence the title. I don’t really see my life ending any other way though tbh, just more of a question of when. If I’m lucky, it’ll be when the climate change induced famine prices me out of being able to eat and I chose not to starve. Anyways, sorry for making you read this. Fuck.

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      4 months ago

      On antidepressants and adhd meds, I’ll have to stop the adhd meds which sucks but I can probably cover depression meds out of pocket.

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      4 months ago

      Though it might just be better to go off of them and get it over with. Just killing time anyways, really