I feel so embarrassed even considering certain things!
I know ‘just trying it out’ shouldn’t be a big deal, but in my mind, it is. Even though I know it shouldn’t be.
Can anyone else relate? It’s like consciously, yeah it’s just a thing. It’s not inherently gendered (clothes, makeup whatever) But! I can’t help but feel so embarrassed to try some shit
My partner has been extremely supportive thus far and is ready to explore with me, but shit is so embarrassing!
My guess is internalized “feminine is less than masculine” and I’m not sure how to get past it? Anyone else? Please? Advice? Am making sense?
The first couple of times I tried wearing makeup or clothes coded for women, I hated it. It looked wrong because I felt like I looked wrong.
I needed to find smaller ways that felt right to express myself and work my way into it.
Voice training was really helpful for me.
Going to Sephora and getting a lesson on makeup helped me learn how to do my makeup and I got products that looked right for my skin, I highly recommend it.
Also, HRT is mostly what fixed hating how I looked - making the body and face look female made me feel much more confident and happy in feminine clothes. I hate the contrast between my male body and the female clothing, so having a female body that finally fits the female clothing really helped me. Starting sooner is better, HRT can take a long time to work its magic.
And +1 for voice training, the voice can feel difficult to change but it is something in your control, and learning to feminize your voice can be so helpful.