As the title says, today I managed to call my friend and basically have my coming out. As expected he was basically like “nice. Got a new name or something I have to be careful about?” (I currently havent decided on anything yet) The talk felt good and it devinetively helped a little bit with the hate for myself and I no longer feel absolutely terrible all the time. I still feel kinda terrible due to the feeling of having a hole ripped in my chest, but it devinetively got better after that.