• Chakravanti
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    1 year ago

    My excuse was was just a step in the path that improved my life. For as horrible as it occured, everything else got exponentially fantastically luckier than that one moment was unlucky. I could list a dozen amazing things that came together right therein after. The guy stuck around, had insurance, got me an ambulence…many many more things just lined up to improve my life right therein after.

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      1 year ago

      Hanged man energy (hanging on the tree of life upside down) gives that perspective, doesn’t it? It took me kissing death on the mouth a few times before I got the perspective I really needed, though. Whatever, as long as we do the work to get there after the stepping stones appear. They’re not there to walk on themselves!

      Lighter than a feather feels great!

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        1 year ago

        If I get the cash and a good drawing beforehand to be sure a lot of the tiny little details apart of it are done correctly beforehand I’ll have exactly that tattooed on my back. The hanged man.

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          1 year ago

          Forget the money and watch it flow. Put your mind on creative endeavors, because you sound like an artist.

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            1 year ago

            I know what I want but haven’t gotten it even drawn beyond some incomplete sketches.

            Key points though:

            The cross is upside down, posted on a round stone Pentagram “window” pointing up. The top of the cross ends in the middle of the pentagon in the center Through the window you can see an almost completely waned moon crescent but through that bright bit you see a crow facing the foot of the hanged man.

            Outside the stone crawls a dragon biting his tail on the top right (from your perspective of viewing such). His wings hang on the left. The left leg is obviously bent with the foot just “above” the other knee. The right foot is nailed. The hands clasped over the chest just between the nipples and the belly.

            There’s more I’m still debating details of when I get to find an artist. Some I won’t put out there til I get it too.

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              1 year ago

              It sounds like a mixture of the oroboros, the Ace of Pentacles, the Five of Cups, not-quite Yggdrasil/Petra’s cross, and Odin. Tbh it sounds dope af! I’m totally vibing on the pictures in my head. I’m adding Ogun’s face on the Ace of Pents, in my mind’s eye, but you do you! As I said, it sounds dope!

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                1 year ago

                I live on SSDI. I doubt i’ll get the money together.

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                  1 year ago

                  Can you draw? Is there some other side-hustle to do? Insist people pay in cash. I’m in a situation Annette side-hustles aren’t forthcoming, but my eyes and ears are open, so who knows what tomorrow brings.

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                    1 year ago

                    No. My wife can and she’s done some of it a while ago but the diabetes and other health issues have more or less distracted her ability to help on that end.

                    I can teach people how to learn to use GNU/Linux, GPG purely out the terminal, Monero, PW management for high level security that even AI can’t crack if you play it strong enough.

                    I can’t find anyone interested in it let alone pay for any services. Hell I even bought a bunch of old towers off Craigslist a couple years ago and offer a Free comp set to anyone getting far enough to learn GPG and notas single one has gotten close enough to actually have a lesson let alone learn gorramn thing.

                    I’m talking dope on the darknet safer than any dealers you’ll have to casino the safety of dealing with and the amazing greatness of being able to discard the notion of handling anything like that. Not to mention how cheap it is and the availability of shit you’ve heard of everything about but the availability of.

                    Whatever. My offer on the “Free” desktop is not that it has no cost for anyone accepting it but Free as in Freedom. ALA Richard Stallman. This exchange is on the table that I may, in return, learn how to teach people the necessary skills that must be executed en masse to save life on this world. And now, such in a very short time we must do this or else everyone dies. Decade tops I call.