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The original was posted on /r/getmotivated by /u/LDrunkling on 2024-01-23 17:58:36+00:00.

Hello,

Finally after all this time… I’m reaching out for some help.

I’ve changed my life in this year! I’m working out everyday, staying on top of chores, I’ve found better work where I live, and overall things are going well. I’m grateful… but one thing that is absolutely haunting me is my inability to engage in creating.

I don’t know how to start projects to ignite a passion in me anymore. I graduated with a degree in art, I had an artist residency in Italy that unfortunately I lost because of the pandemic. I feel I’ve never been able to recover from the lost opportunity, and I had also lost myself to abuse for a good year… My therapist had told me I’m still “grieving”, as if a part of me died.

BUT!! I’m finally taking control of my life, I feel happier overall… I’m just… not creating. I don’t have a creative community anymore. I don’t have a place to put my artistic efforts, and I can’t manage to finish any project. I miss art so much. I miss drawing, and working in it. I feel without it I’m only a fragment of who I am.

All while the years that pass that I’m not working look bad on my CV for any potential career in my chosen degree… a part of me is panicking.

Does anyone have any advice?