The shine for porn has worn off a bit for me too. You might find messing with AI role play or story generation something to take the edge off for less money . For me it adds a bit of the excitement in discovering how my virtual partner will respond that can feel a bit like the excitement of being surprised by a real partner. It’s not perfect by any stretch but if your looking for something to scratch and itch for less than a cam girl.

Nothing wrong with wanting interaction with a real person either. This might be something you go to in addition to irl partner , or maybe just not a good time, and I don’t know your personal circumstances and don’t want to patronise, but just in case you need to hear it; don’t give up on finding someone to share your sexuality and/or love with irl. You have good in you, and even though the world isn’t fair and some of us find it more difficulty than others, there’s someone out there for everyone. Keep putting yourself out there and treating people with kindness.