When I pull off my toenails I feel relief. It still hurts to do but afterwards I get a sense of overwhelming calm. Ignoring the pain aspect, It’s kind of similar to the feeling of having a blocked nose become clear. Is this indicative of anything?/ does anyone else experience something similar?
Do your best to stop doing so. In the meantime, find a psychologist/psychiatrist/go to your family doctor. If you can’t afford one, try finding community health clinics.