Mine is nostalgia. That’s literally my copium drug and it really is strong some days. It’s not that I sit here everyday and never move on to newer things, I do sometimes embrace new things and realize there’s more out there than what I have.
It’s just, there’s an online radio show I still listen to, to this day and it’s episodes are like 17 years old and been out of syndication for a good long while now with no hope of returning. It’s like my time capsule that opens up so much in my mind, so many memories, so many what-ifs to think about, bringing me back to where things were in that time period .etc
And it’s something I just don’t think I’ll ever let go because as much as I’ve tried to find a place in this awfully trashed world, I’m always winding back at square one because either I’m incompatible or it is incompatible with me.
I just want to go back to the 2000s and do it all over again and meet who I know now just to see how things could’ve gone if we’ve all met earlier.
Understanding that the world is not black and white and that today is the best day ever and most peaceful day ever for all of humanity so far. Yes the challenges seem steep but when you understand history, they don’t seem as bad as what has happened in the past.