im sad and have noone to talk to about it… except for wifey, and two friends… but this is about one of the two friends, and they are friends with each other too… and telling wifey about it always leads to me feeling worse because she’ll say clever things like “just talk to him about it” …
i dont want to talk to him about it, that would mean i would have to acknowledge the problem and address it directly.
what a silly way to deal with emotional turmoil, am i right?
no i know im not right… i wouldnt be posting this crap if i knew i was right. i know im wrong and i should talk to him about it but i just cant ;_;
yeah… i know you must be thinking i need therapy and you would be absolutely right, except i hate going to the doctor and them being a special type of doctor for the mind and such doesnt make my detestation for docs any better.
sorry this really isnt about me being transfem. i AM transfem, but that doesnt have anything to do with the rest of it… except i cut off most people i knew even before i transitioned… just because they would no longer be part of my daily life. which sucks but i guess i did this to myself so serves me right.
anyway, im sad, tired, nostalgic and have no point. thanks for reading ._.
This is a space for you, your life is transfem experience. You are welcome to post here about whatever you’re going through, this space exists to support you.
It is absolutely not your fault that you had to cut out people you knew pre-transition. You deserve friendship and love and emotional support. I think you should talk to your wife and tell her that you don’t need her to tell you what to do, just to listen and understand and support you. Sometimes we don’t need the “clever things” and just need someone to listen and acknowledge how we feel about something and tell us it’s okay.