Sorry for mental health kind of question, but I do not know better place to ask about this stuff.
Nowadays, I lie down on a bed and just watch twitch streams all day, with a little bit of browsing lemmy in between. I do not want to do anything, pretty much any activity seems to cause exhaustion. So, I just do bare minimum and return to bed, watching twitch for over 5 hours.
Another is that I feel I cannot do anything good enough. I cannot study effectively, cannot do menial tasks without being stressed. This is especially concerning for me because I am taking a graduate program, but I also doubt I could do any kind of real work. I just don’t think I have capability to read complicated texts and remember it clearly, write a decent piece of literature on some subject, or just about anything at all.
Is this related to addiction - can addiction make me feel exhausted all the time? Also, how can I escape this permanent lethargy? Any tips would be greatly appreciated!
Sounds right to me. For me, depression and anxiety are two sides of the same thing. For me, both mean I’m not coping with reality well. I’ve been struggling myself recently, even though I am on medication. FWIW, I have also struggled with addiction and you aren’t far off. Addiction generally starts as another way of coping, but you probably aren’t there yet. Addiction, for me, is defined as: I continue doing this despite more consequences than rewards. If something helps me forget the reality I am struggling with, I tend to get addicted to that part of it, regardless of what that does to the rest of my life. All of these issues will feed into each other.
I wish you happiness though. One or two months is a long time to be miserable. Listen to the majority of ppl in this thread and reach out to a professional. Just going to your regular doctor or a urgent care type place will work to start if you don’t know where to start in your area. In addition to medication, therapy helps (or if that isn’t available, just talking with someone about your problems). DM me if you want to talk, I’m all ears. Helps me to try and help others.