This will be my first Christmas without her. I’ve already had our first anniversary (23rd) and her first birthday (44th), and now Christmas, New Year (which we always spent together) and my birthday.
The problem with this diagram – with this theory – is that it assumes the outer circle can grow. That it is not moored, permanently, to the inner circle.
Fuck.
I had a snappy comeback until I realized this wasn’t abstract.
I’ve lost my mom, my dad, step sister, foster parents, and adoptive parents.
I don’t know the loss you feel. I’m sorry.
The loss of someone you chose to be a family with must be much stronger.
I hope it gets easier while the fond memories get stronger.