Not sure if this is where I should post this. I just gotta put this out there, somewhere, anywhere.
My best friend since before COVID barely calls anymore. If I want to speak to her, I’m the one that has to initiate that conversation. We’ve gone many days between even a text, unless I again initiate it. We used to be so close. But now I see how close she is with her new friends and cannot help but feel left out. There’s so many times that I’ve felt left out, or forgotten about. I just feel so alone.
They all kind of ditched me to go to the casino tonight. We were all together and they just abruptly decided to leave. I’m not surprised as they excluded me for half of the party anyways. They can all speak English just fine but speak Vietnamese, which I can barely understand. I understand why they prefer to speak it, but it wasn’t always this way. They used to speak English so that I could contribute to the conversation, but now not at all (I’m not exaggerating)
I’m staying over at her place this weekend so I went back to her house alone. My eyes feel a bit raw from how much I’ve been crying since I got here.
So alone. So much for a big sis.
She showed here color. It’s always sad to see a friend phase away but be found of the memories you have and maybe just take a break. If the friendship is hung up on constant communication to work maybe think of it in another way. This could be a great opportunity for you to reflect on the relationship and what you like about it and how you are viewed as a friend as well. And maybe you could find some new.
That’s what I’m afraid of. I want to hear from her more frequently, and I’ve told her that. But maybe she just doesn’t want to anymore. I’m so afraid of losing her as my closest confidant.
Sometimes people need a bit of distance to realise that they want to have the relationship.