Call 988 if it gets to that point. If you really feel that you are a danger to yourself or others you can find the help you need. Hopefully it doesn’t make it that far but if it does perhaps that is a wake up call to the rents.

And remember, you aren’t alone

Check your state laws. In the state I practice in (PA) once you’re 14 you don’t need parental consent to start psychiatric medication. You would still have the issue of funding but one thing at a time, I guess

There is also no requirement for your parents to be notified if you pursue outpatient care.

Please note this only applies to the state of Pennsylvania. Other states vary and it is my understanding that Pennsylvania is abnormal compared to other states in the northeast in giving minors a somewhat significant amount of autonomy in terms of medical decision making for mental health, abortion, dental services, etc.

Also SUPER important to note because this is not always clearly explained: even if you are in PA and you discuss your situation with your provider to ensure they will not notify your parents there are some things that will compromise this:

PA has mandated reporting laws that are fairly strict. If you disclose physical or sexual abuse we are legally required to report it and cannot report anonymously. If your abuser is your parent they may find out that they were reported by some psychologist or whatever and do the math

If you’re on your parents insurance (highly likely) they will rat you out. The insurance company has legal and regulatory requirements to send a document called an explanation of benefits after every medical bill. This is not the actual bill but a cost breakdown explaining what the provider charged, what the insurance company paid, and what you as the subscriber were responsible for. As a result even if you intercept and pay every bill related to treatment they will still get these, either through mail or their patient portal. Depends on how thorough they are though, some people check these diligently and some people ignore them all. But the do identify who got a service, where the service was, and what the service was

Can you remind her doctors are professionals and one day you may go outside and never return?

If you’re old enough to consent for yourself in your state and can manage to cover the copay yourself, your parents likely won’t even know about it unless they actually read the Explanation of Benefits (very uncommon in my experience)

You can search Psychologytoday.com for virtual psychiatrists in your state, and find someone who will be sympathetic to your situation and stretch out your appointments as long as possible to reduce how often you need to pay a copay

Feel free to PM me, especially if you live in FL

Start acting like you don’t believe in them or their jobs. Or that they’re part of some big conspiracy.