From now on, I’ve decided not to count the number of days or post updates here regularly. Every time I track my progress by counting days, I plant the thought of “Oh, I’ve been porn-free for X days,” which keeps the idea of relapse alive in my mind. Over time, I’ve realized that whenever I focus on counting, I eventually relapse. So I asked myself: “What am I counting for?” Because constantly thinking about it means I’m still giving it space in my head.

To explainn what I mean, here’s an example: If I tell you to think of an elephant, then a monkey, then a coin, and then ask you to think of an elephant again, now, what if I tell you not to think of an elephant? You’ll probably still picture one. Why? Because I planted that thought in your head.

This is exactly what happens when we track our progress obsessively. We get fixated on the number instead of the real growth.

That being said, I’m not giving up on my Nofap journey, I’m just shifting my focus. I’ll keep going, and if I relapse, I’ll post about it. But from now on, I won’t let numbers define my progress.