I’m 30, transfem, and to be quite honest, I feel my will to live slowly slipping away. I’m trying to find the willpower to finish my PhD thesis and to get into a better living situation after that, but I find myself frozen and wanting to curl up into a tiny ball of nothingness instead. And there are LOTS of reasons for that, mostly centered around trauma, guilt, and shame.

I don’t think I can fit everything I need to say in a succinct post, so if it isn’t against the rules, would any of you fellow girlies be willing to shoot me a DM and give some advice? I don’t think I can really explain without having a back-and-forth conversation… thanks in advance. 🏳️‍⚧️💜

  • mortalglowworm@reddthat.comEnglish
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    1 day ago

    Hey, girl. I am 40, and cis-male. My experience might not be reflective, but I prefer to offer some support instead of just reading this and leaving it alone.

    Please know that we all do feel down, we all feel trapped, and beaten, and defeated time to time. I had a very dark period in my 20s, only solved in my early 30s.

    Please know that, even if that’s not apparent, there are people that do care about you. Try to be around them more often.

    Sometimes financial insecurity creates these kind of thoughts, and if that’s the case I have no easy advice. But just know that, it is not failure if you decide to put a pause on your PhD, take care of yourself, then come back to it.

    Sending love!