I have composed a piece of written musings on the tools choice in clay sculpting which I put on a display on a public internet forum.
I have received following advice: Go seek therapy.
However upon checking my vaults it has become apparent that they are barren.
What should I do in this situation?
A good part of therapy is having the problems accurately identified with possible realistic goals for how to improve your mental situation.
Self diagnosis often leads to the wrong conclusions. A perfect example is that there are already many rich, powerful, fearless assholes. Not only is adding you to their ranks unrealistic but it may not lead you to a future where you are content with yourself. Therapy can help you find whats wrong, and help you with the tools to know what to do about it. They aren’t going to “fix” you though. If you’re going into it with that mindset you’re going to come out exactly as you went in. Therapy is work. Be prepared to put in the work. It can be difficult, but its always worth it. The alternative is what you are now or possible even a worse version of yourself if you go down the wrong spiral.
I want money and want to have a mindset that will allow for a swift and easy accumulation of it so then I don’t need it anymore and can focus on higher luxuries such as some kind of abstract ethics or whatever
If that means being an asshole for some time then it’s okay as long as it is helping me achieve this minimum monetary security
Almost nothing in life is swift and easy, and certainly not what you’re asking for here. You already know this. Since that’s the case are you okay with the possibility of going through your entire life still clinging to this idea without even getting close to it until you shut your eyes for the last time on your deathbed? I mean, its your life, but that sounds like a pretty sorry existence to me especially when there are alternatives available to you.
You don’t need money to accomplish this.
I don’t need money to accomplish what? What I would want to accomplish actually… Well I want some nice ranch hobbit like house for once and then some nice garden but thats just one of them houses. And also some kind of nice boat
I want to have voyages on the ocean on a boat. Like self sufficient boat
I want to live in the New Zealand with a nice view maybe
That all sounds like lots of money required to me. I mean this is the things I really would enjoy in life
My port would be in New Zealand and my house too, at least one of them
In another post you made here you said you had a silly original post to have interesting in serious conversation in comments. Are you just shitposting?
I am 100% honest why does it sound like shitposting? This is what I dream of in life
I don’t know, what do you dream of then?
I really really would love to go on a boat to the ocean and all the water around you, I love water
Got it. Shitposting. I’m out. Enjoy your day.
Wait, I promise I am not. It’s just maybe that my stuff is different than what you want from life and hence your perceived notion of shitposting?
Still I will enjoy it because honestly despite all my obstacles I do enjoy life in its various aspects. Even if to watch a favorite tv show before sleep, go to the nature or immerse yourself in your hobby, these are all very lovely things.
Not to mention the taste of a really fine dish that fills you with happiness ah.
Or the pain of muscles from a day of a honest work.
Smell of the rain on a sunny day.
Even the sadness of departure is something that is pure and cleansing ultimately.
Nah I god damn love life. I just think I could love it even more if I had the guts to remove the chains of fear. I could be a queen of life then. Oh I would be a queen of life believe me.
I was born to be one but it was unfortunately taken away from me.
So that I never had the chance to show the real length of my wings and frankly quite wonderful things I am capable of if I put myself to them.
I have capacity for great achievements and extraordinary since childhood but I waste potential with some stuff that shouldn’t even be a problem in the first place. And it wouldn’t be if not for some… external factors. I just need to soar in the air once more as is my right.
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