Been into sissy porn, captions, etc for a few years. Ever since the pandemic I started to consume more porn and started to really crave being a sissy, suck a cock and being fucked. It got to the point where I opened a kik and started flirting with men online to make them cum.
Given how much fun and horny that made me I finally caved and decided to get grindr, message a few men until one made me feel safe enough and we agreed to meet up on his lunch break. He came over, pulled his cock out, I got on my knees and began to suck. I was a proper porn whore, his cock was all sloppy from my spit by the time he finished in my mouth and I drank it all.
I’m not exactly having regrets but I also don’t feel anything in particular. Like it felt hollow, my cock never even got hard during the blow job (though I did make a wet spot in my panties). I don’t know if I just hyped it up too much in my head because of all the hypno and captions saying I would feel addicted. So now I’m just wondering if I really am a sissy or this was just a fantasy that should be kept online. Any opinions or insights are appreciated
These things are definitely over hyped in the hypnos and captions, I find it fun, but I definitely feel like it’s one thing that isn’t always talked about a lot.
For one, it seems like you don’t have any regrets or feel grossed out, so it’s probably safe to say you are at least attracted to men.
There’s a few questions I think you should ask yourself now:
Do you enjoy dressing up/does it excite you?
Do you enjoy being submissive to men? Even in just roleplay?
If the answer to both of those is yes, then you probably are, or at least some sort of femme person.
Maybe the fact that it was super unceremonious made it kind of a bust.
I know certain things for me are only enjoyable if I can tell the other person is loving it, or there was certain build up to a moment. Maybe you’re the same way.