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When I actually looked at what was sucking up a third off my paycheck taxes was actually a fairly small portion. Most of it was paying united Healthcare to make me switch psychiatrists which I had to do twice because the first one (who I had to try first) was a telepsychiatrist who could immediately tell that I can’t be managed that way. Whoever is going to claim responsibility for this clusterfuck needs to see me in person at least once a year plus a few times more I look particularly shitty. I could have told them that without having to risk somebody who doesn’t know me getting me committed… twice in under a month!
I’m glad this is getting some positive interaction. I’ve tried posting Bible memes before. idk I thought this was pretty damn funny, and I’ve posted some stuff about gnosticism since learning more about it has become a my wiki rabbithole special interest. Like that one in particular isn’t even one of those tired het “marriage bad” jokes he literally starts by complimenting his own wife. Like a lot of Bible stories are just genuinely funny as fuck like the thing where it just goes on for a good couple of verses about dudes jizzing bucketfuls of cum. When you grew up with that shit sometimes it’s fun to just look back like wait …wut?
but literally any bible / Christianity comm gets downvoted to hell on lemmy and I’m just like. Y’all know the block function is a thing right? You can just let people have their community and have their own discussions. I just block all the AI porn comms because I don’t really wanna see it but I’m not gonna mess with the posts because idc what other people are into. Like seriously just look up “Bible” and “Christianity” and just go block all those comms. If it’s that upsetting for you to see them then block them. Live your best life as far from it as possible, especially if you’ve got religious trauma.
Especially those of us that grew up fundie and regardless of what we believe now it was a huge part of our childhood and we can’t even make memes about it with each other that will show up in our own feeds normally weighted with the stuff from the other comms we follow?
Apyteleto News@lemmy.world•Exclusive: US military to start kicking out transgender troops next month, memo says13·2 days agoNot military, but a lot of nurses have been sharing advice on what to do if ICE shows up
What is fun but an evolutionary drive?
Apyteleto News@lemmy.world•Exclusive: US military to start kicking out transgender troops next month, memo says321·2 days agoI mean you’re not… literally wrong. There’s a lot about the use of the US military that is fucked. But there’s a lot else they currently do or even could be doing if some reforms happened that would be more helpful than the shitty things they do. But most importantly, your bringing it up here only serves to derail a different discussion that is important in its own right, and that this thread was created to discuss. The most important thing is that you’re not helping.
Apyteleto News@lemmy.world•Exclusive: US military to start kicking out transgender troops next month, memo says831·2 days agoOne of the cooks downstairs went on a rant the other day about how they’re willing to risk their lives to defend their country why can’t everybody just shut up and let them do it. Hyped up the whole damn cafeteria talking about their lgbt loved ones and how if you can’t even bring yourself to love someone how they are you at least need to mind your business. t’s nice hearing some ranting in that direction for once.
Tricks monkey into providing food and shelter like a boss
…by murdering any creature it sees that’s less than half is size for fun, even if it ultimately decides not to eat the guts after ripping them out.
Apyteleto World News@quokk.au•Trump administration releases 60,000 more files on RFK assassination2·3 days agodeleted by creator
Apyteleto Health - Resources and discussion for everything health-related@lemmy.world•Moderna's combo Covid and flu mRNA shot outperforms current vaccines in large trialEnglish4·3 days agoI’m pretty sure it’s because my whole body has anxiety not just my brain. My body sees a few antigens and just:
Apyteleto Health - Resources and discussion for everything health-related@lemmy.world•Moderna's combo Covid and flu mRNA shot outperforms current vaccines in large trialEnglish33·3 days agoTotally gonna get it anyway but I’m not looking forward to my body throwing a 24h shitfit over it - I usually get what they call a VIGOROUS immune response from either one alone (not every year though, this last year’s flu shot was actually 100% fine for some reason). One time I was an hour late on my Motrin-Tylenol rotation and the symptoms peaked 15 minutes or so after I got that delayed dose down and I just remember laying on my husband’s lap and being so tired and fatigued and my bones were aching everywhere and I couldn’t stop shivering and I must have just passed out because I remember suddenly waking up and feeling completely fine again. It’s completely benign and controllable with over the counter medication (and undoubtedly better than catching the actual flu / COVID) but it suuucks.
Apyteleto The Onion@midwest.social•Increasingly Powerful Trans Person Capable Of Using Every Single Bathroom At OnceEnglish3·4 days agoI’m just going to add to this existing comment about how this topic really grew to be such a big part of my life right now. The specific comments on further reading are down at the bottom in bullet points.
Apyteleto The Onion@midwest.social•Increasingly Powerful Trans Person Capable Of Using Every Single Bathroom At OnceEnglish12·4 days agoI’m just going to add to this existing comment about how this topic really grew to be such a big part of my life right now. The specific comments on further reading are down at the bottom in bullet points.
Apyteleto The Onion@midwest.social•Increasingly Powerful Trans Person Capable Of Using Every Single Bathroom At OnceEnglish92·4 days agotbh though the more I understand it the more I’m actually falling in love with it from a cognitive behavioral (and even moreso from a dialectal behavioral) standpoint. I’ve reached a point where I can recite the DBT manual back to front (300h of therapy) and I’m pretty in-tune with the science-based aspects of behaviorism, but I’m hitting a wall where there’s only so much sterile data tracking I can keep doing in my personal life. Even with a lot of it automated through biometric monitoring (fitbit etc) I’m finding it difficult to truly engage with raw numbers on a day-to-day basis. The esoteric experience fits into dialectal behaviorism in a similar way that zen Buddhism does (and the syncretic aspect allows the zen buddhism to be simultaneously integrated) in that it accepts the organic way that the human brain most readily processes the continuous feedback loop between sensory input and behavioral output.
The human brain is much better designed (as much as you can call it designed anyway) on a very basic level to engage with singing and dancing and rhythm and story and shiny rocks. I’m finding a lot of joy (and mental / emotional peace) in looking at esoteric traditions and creating my own personal rituals that incorporate those concepts (like reframing negative thoughts but using concepts like you see with a rosary where it’s both tactile and repetitive). And I come from a social / cultural milieu where those stories and that imagery are very ingrained (the “modern” meyers briggs personality typing system can be traced back to Galen’s humoral theory, which is also where astrology and hogwarts houses come from; it’s literally the exact same concepts just with more emphasis on self-determinism), yet I don’t personally have any specific stigma OR trauma around them. I’m also largely agnostic anyway in that I think debates about whether or not god exists are pretty much moot in that if there is a god it’s by definition beyond our comprehension anyway, and the more important discussion is what we do to theorize, act on, and evaluate the best ways to be kind to our fellow humans.
The two things I also have to keep in mind though are that
a) a lot of christians these days (particularly evangelicals) would consider this highly heretical (especially when it comes to trinitarianism, which when you look into the history is pretty much just an excuse to commit political and imperialist murder, and a big root of the long-running christian tradition of the same). This is especially darkly hilarious when you consider pentacostalism where a deep esoteric spiritual fervor is actually explicitly encouraged, but with very little mindfulness as to what specific behaviors you’re actually trying to grow within yourself, which really just creates a malleable mob mentality for a capable enough cult leader.
b) on the other end, many people DO have specific traumas in relation to traditional christian imagery and concepts and aren’t able to separate them in a healthy way. Not that I was particularly prone to evangelizing to begin with, but the specific nature of the esoteric experience is to also understand that it IS esoteric, that is, highly personal. I enjoy talking about it (especially when it comes to the history, anthropology, and even sociological context), but I’m also not going to tell people that my views or practice are necessarily the best, especially since the very thing that makes them so effective is that I’ve specifically tailored them to myself. The downside to this is that I’m still forgoing that community ritualism that gives adherents to mainstream religions that social reinforcement and feeling of community (which I think is a big part of the observed health benefits of religious practice).
TLDR; I’m forming a 1-person cult, and having an absolute BALL.
For people wondering, the things I’ve been learning from are:
- wikipedia binges / rabbit holes on hermeticism and other esoteric / mystery religions, especially starting from around the copts and tracing their influence to the modern day. This whole info binge actually started with a deep dive into the history of cartomancy and just steadily branched out into the history of astrology, tasseography, kabbalah, et. (the best part about kabbalah is that as far as I can tell, Christians use it waaay more than jews).
- That top-level comment is specifically referencing this wikipedia article on the SATOR square
- I also watched some stuff from Crash Course on youtube on general history and they even have a mythology course that helped give context, especially on the syncretic aspects (honestly a lot of what interested me was an early interest in greco-roman mythology and similar that they had mutal influence with such as the norse epics; I watched a lot of Stargate as a small child!)
- youtube lectures from people with doctorates or masters in divinity, especially from the presbyterian traditions since they seem to go the most in-depth into the archaeological / anthropological data. You just have to keep in mind that they are approaching the subject from a deistic lens (and they’re trinitarians 😠). But you’ll at least get a much less fire and brimstone / emotionally charged narrative and you’ll get some subjects you can look up outside of that lens to compare and contrast.
- honestly a lot of personal websites of people who actually practice esoteric traditions such as tarot, especially the people that are associated with “schools” of hermeticism because similarly to the way that Presbyterianism values an almost academically structured passing-down of spiritual tradition there’s almost a sort of smaller generational tranmission of traditions within that community.
- If I think of any specific books I will add them but the big one I read recently was literally just Ancient Christian Magic (you can see in my history some posts about some of the entries that really cracked me up). If nothing else, go through the glossary and read up more on the concepts it briefly explains (that’s how I ended up reading about the SATOR square).
- I also recently really enjoyed Feng Shui Modern. You can see some of his shorts on Youtube under the account @dearmodern. He takes such a delightfully practical approach to describing why those concepts help create a space that people feel safer and more comfortable in, which I really love because like you see above I really like finding ways to incorporate those spiritual aspects into my life a way that’s really mindful of what benefits I can actually gain from doing so. It also covers a lot of basic concepts of taoist spirituality which is both similar and probably shares a lot of the same roots.
- In a similar vein I’ve recently enjoyed this version of the i-ching because I started this whole thing by reading about cartomancy and the i-ching is a very similar concept where randomized imagery (but in this case textual vs literal images) is used to stimulate introspection and connections between the present, past, and possible future. The reason I liked this version is because I’m less familiar with the eastern cultural references and this has very clear-cut notes for stuff like “this is a cultural reference to when King Wen’s son approached the Shang King to plead for his father’s release and was tortured to death” etc.
Apyteleto The Onion@midwest.social•Increasingly Powerful Trans Person Capable Of Using Every Single Bathroom At OnceEnglish48·3 days agoWITCHCRAFT! THEY’RE DOING WITCHCRAFT!
RETRO SATANA, TOTO OPERE ASPER!
ORO TE PATER, ORO TE PATER, SANAS!
O PATER, ORES PRO AETATE NOSTRA!
ORA, OPERARE, OSTENTA TE PASTOR!(sorry I’ve just been reading up a bunch on ancient coptic / christian ritual magic; it’s fascinating, and the fact that most modern christians don’t realize that their religion is fundamentally rooted in syncretic magic traditions that coalesced into an apocalyptic death / martyr cult is WILD)
Especially if I get sent back to the psych ward (jk the straps are too long I would NOT let me keep them if I was my nurse)
Apyteleto Political Weirdos @lemmy.world•Remember when Homer invented the makeup shotgun?50·4 days agoHe looks like a half wiped ass (and I’m a nurse so I actually know exactly what that looks like).
Not until the marination is complete, anyway.
You can actually get them on temu / aliexpress / other cheap sites. Usually they’re called some variation of “Ballet / yoga slipper socks.” I did order some special variety that fits my 10-11 feet (I’m quite tall for AFAB) but that listing goes in and out of existence on Amazon and I haven’t seen them anywhere else.
Reminds me of this short by an L&D nurse.
As a side note: when an old employer switched from Cerner to Epic they started out the first set of classes explaining Epic’s billing system and showing us how nurses would now be expected to bill for supplies and services. I think they realized how many of us would have not billed for stuff or stopped documenting certain things we knew would be billed more for, because they stopped talking about that pretty quickly.
They’ll make us do every other job in the hospital instead of hiring support staff
Then they’ll get mad because we’re not doing any of those jobs as well as a specialized support staff would AND we’re not getting actual nurse shit done fast enough. But billing? Oh they don’t trust us with billing.
As a final note: other nurses also think this is hilarious. Honestly that community is most of what keeps me going back to reddit. BoRU is getting pretty stale / repetitive, but I can’t find that kind of nurse-to-nurse or even hcw-to-hcw commiseration on lemmy, and there’s a lot of reasons why but the end result is that it’s just difficult to grow that kind of community here.