EpicKebabEater [he/him, it/its]

I no longer consume kebab

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Cake day: August 20th, 2023

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  • -I overreact when I see trans men who’ve made more progress than me, I think I made my (also ftm) boyfriend worse by trying to get my manhood validated which is what got me into wanting to fix it.

    -I bury all emotions under anger, I’ve worked on this for a while and have gotten good at confronting/solving the original problem that makes me angry but I’m still very out of tune with other emotions.

    -I have heated dudebro moments when I see trans men who actually want to be feminine. I know it’s nonsensical and fight it but the thoughts of “man up lol” are still there. This happens with cis men too, with the weird satisfaction of being more masculine than a “real man”.

    -In general manhood feels like a competition where only the buffest tallest men get the male crown while the short incel peasants suffer. Any love or appreciation I get despite being short and not that far into transition feels like they are secretly saying “You should detrans and become a housewife lol”. I can get a compliment and still twist it to be insulting to my masculinity somehow.

    -Talking about problems make me feel I’m not being a “real man”. I actively fight that one a lot but it still ends up making me keep my problems to myself until they all pile together and make me a lot worse mentally.