I remember being 11 and playing Super Mario World and a couple Zelda games about a hundred times each. I came back to them over and over, I remember the maps and layout of Ocarina of Time better than I remember some of my childhood homes.

Now I have a steam library with 750 games in it and I can barely finish with the game I’m currently playing before I’m back on the store pages looking for more novelty. I think the average play time of items in my library is something like 2 hours.

I hate what I’ve become but I’ve lost what I had in the past. When I only had like five games I had no problem coming back to them over and over and over, but now that I’ve got my own income and no oversight I’ve flooded myself with options to the point that I don’t even want to play any of them. It sucks. I take solace in the fact that I pretty exclusively buy things on sale, so the total money pile is roughly half the size it would have been otherwise, but even so I don’t really want to know how much money I’ve spent on steam over my career. That’s cursed knowledge.