I took the bus like usual today and I was sitting on a side seat. Two cute women enter it and since they couldn’t find a seat, they stood next to me. They were engrossed in their conversation so I didnt think much when one of them started leaning on me. But she didnt stop leaning on me, this went on for the next 10 mins. I could feel her hips and stomach on my side.
I was trying to look at my phone to distract myself but I popped a boner. It was very awkward as I couldn’t go anywhere and I was starting to panic. I was looking around to see if anyone noticed by thankfully no one did. But wtf bruh. The bus was kinda crowded but she had more than enough space to stand properly.
I got off the bus and holy shit, I felt like a million bucks. I never touched a women or even held hands with one so this was new. This was probably the best day in a long time for me. My depression actually got better for now. Is my reaction weird/creepy?
Boners are a natural reaction that’s pretty much out of our control so getting one and hiding it isn’t a bad thing.
It’s not okay nonconsensually involve someone in your stuff so making someone aware of your boner is absolutely not okay. Ditto for taking advantage of a situation like that to grope/fondle the person.
I’d need to know more to be sure (and to know specifically information you don’t know) but it doesn’t sound like you did anything to make anyone feel uncomfortable so I think there’s nothing wrong on that count.
It does sound like you’re extremely tightly wound sexually though, so there may be some stuff you should examine internally - like why that was so exciting for you. It sounds like you may need a more healthy sexual outlet if you’re reacting this strongly.