I have both ADHD and Autism for context.
Anyway I recently started noticing that I tend to have dual organizational systems in my apartment. Some things and storage spaces are totally organized to the 10th degree. Other things and storage spaces are totally chaotic and some of my belongings just end up wherever I drop them. It is kind if weird because there is a very clear differences in something like my closet. My main bag and dresser is super organized but but my desk and under my bed is often just a dumping zone. I end up having to clean up a bunch of junk and trash every 2 weeks or so.
I have also noticed that I sometimes will get really impulsive and move things around. Of course this triggers my desire to keep everything the same so I end up moving everything back. It’s like my ADHD jumps in and then the Autism takes back over.
Same thing with me going to social outings. I will suddenly get a desire to go into a bar or group activity but when I get there I get overwhelmed in 5 minutes or less and I end up mostly keeping to myself in the corner. I want to go get wild and have fun but then I get overwhelmed by where I should look. I don’t want to accidentally stare at someone to long so I just look at the floor.
What’s wild that I just realized this more recently
I don’t have ADHD, but I’m autistic.
I too have two organization systems. But I realized that what seems chaotic, has actually a precise order. My closet is organized in a specific way, but my work desk looks like a mess, however, change something of my chaotic desk and I will notice. And will take me some sweet time to recover from it.
With social events I was like that too, but given some time, I learned that it’s not worth it. When I feel like going to a party, I remember the noise, the lights, the people, and remember how stressful they are. I don’t like parties anymore, and don’t get that urge anymore, but I still have days in which I want to be “social”. That is for me the hardest urge to “solve”, as I struggle with other humans same way you are.
Yeah I still go to parties and social events because…
Actually I don’t really know. Some things are work related but everything else is crazy.
What’s funny is that in very rare occasions I have gotten seemingly drunk without touching the bottle. Everyone around me gets super drunk and I guess I just get super excited or something. One time I went to a dance party and I ended up dancing and singing till 3am. I don’t have much memory from that as if I was drunk. I am told that I came out of no where and became the life of the party. One of my special interests is Jazz so maybe I just got a self induced hit. I assume this is a ADHD trait but who knows.
That happened too many times before I knew I was autistic. Now… it only happens when I can’t avoid the social event, but a pair of earplugs works wonders for the noise (not for the rest of the stimuli and the presence of people, tho, but makes it more manageable).