Meditation totally saved me personally, I used to be crippled with depression, insomnia, anxiety and bipolar disorder. Now I’m happy and healthy with no medication. The thing is, it takes YEARS and you really have to keep up the practice while you are getting little results for a long time. But then boom you look back and it’s like “woah I’m way better now”. Maybe you just need to try a different style that suits you better… after a while (depending on how often/how long you are meditating) it should be pleasant enough you want to keep trying it