Sounds more like youre spinning wheels than experiencing life. Maybe you should try that. Go muddin, spin some wheels, hang out with your inner child, be your true self, buy some guns, overthrow the government, write a book about it and get laid in the garden.
Do what? All my hobbies feel like unpaid work and actual work feels like the last remotely fulfilling thing in my life.
Zen mind, Beginners mind
Is that any of that meditation nonsense that shit just backfires and makes me ruminate more
Sounds more like youre spinning wheels than experiencing life. Maybe you should try that. Go muddin, spin some wheels, hang out with your inner child, be your true self, buy some guns, overthrow the government, write a book about it and get laid in the garden.