Here recently it seems like everything just gets under my skin so quickly and easily. It’s not that I get mad and take it out on others, it’s just the fact that I’m constantly annoyed and stressed. Something as simple as the dogs tracking some mud through the house will just ruin my mood. I know some people who would just laugh it off and clean it up. Meanwhile I’ll get pissed that I didn’t wipe their feet and be mad the entire time I’m cleaning it up. This has nothing to do with the dogs, it just an example. Any number of seemingly insignificant things can trigger me like that. Like forgetting something at the store and having to go back. I would love to be able to go, “well that sucks” and just get over it.
I can’t tell you. I experimented with psychedelics in my 20s, and it wouldn’t surprise me if that change in behavior was one take away from that time… It’s easy to say life is meaningless, but to personally experience it (or at least what felt like it at the time) is a whole different thing.
After that realization, you get some perspective I guess.