The fact I’ll die alone without ever feeling the love of a woman besides my mother and without a child saddens me. So, as kind of a consolation, I want to know… How does it feel? Being in love and being together, the sex part, just living together and all that…
This is so wildly inappropriate for what Op is struggling with it’s unreal.
Whatever your parents did to you to make you think this “tough love” approach is right would be best unpacked with a therapist. Get help.