For me, it’s disappearing. That someday something will happen to me and no one will ever know what it was and where I am. That I will become one of those mysteries you see online and on TV shows. Whenever I think about it I feel nothing but dread.

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    I was in this crystal clear cliffside cove and could see in front of me maybe 10 m or so but the Rock only went out about 5 and then just plunged into the abyss. and after exploring the coastline I swim out about 10 ft past the rocks and realized that I could see nothing but the deepest blue I’d ever seen.

    literally anything could be just a few body lengths away watching me were sensing me, it was almost overwhelming.

    I felt this visceral terror, that I’ve felt before in the middle of reading a Lovecraft story.

    very much looking into the eye of something unknowable.

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      Oh fuck no! Dark water is a big fear of mine. I like swimming, scuba diving, snorkeling BUT those dark patches in the water make me truly feel paralyzed and electrified at the same time brbrbrbr. One time I went to the Yucatan penninsula to swim in a couple of cenotes and boy did it make my body shiver! Let alone the meaning of cenotes in mayan cosmogony and what not but the pure sheer terror that that black water gave me was like nothing else.

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      Oh shit, just reading about this scares me. It must have been so terrifying, not knowing what’s in the deep water

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        beaches are usually sandy or have detritus floating, but this was just stark clear, perfect blue getting deeper and deeper as it devoured the light.

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      I understand thalassophobia. The deep is scary. Funny thing is, though, I can handle being on a ship or flying over water, even though I think about how far down it might be.

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        yep, I’m good with either of those. and I love swimming far out as long as the bottom is still there.

        It’s once the the Earth falls away that I don’t want to be there.