I’ve been diagnosed with ADHD and Autism and I’m pretty familiar with the difficulties and increased anxiety/depression in day-to-day life.
Overall, I’m doing pretty well now. If people talk to me, they would not know I experience any difficulties in life. (Although I’m currently not working). I’m not really that stressed in general, I’m doing much better socially, capable of getting things done everyday, and not feeling terribly tired every day anymore.
But sometimes, seemingly unannounced, I get these bouts of severe discomfort. It feels to me like anxiety, but it’s not preceded by any worrying thoughts. (as far as I can tell).
When I feel this, I usually have to lie down or I might start coughing and vomiting. And I will not be able to get myself to do anything anymore. (not even just do something I usually enjoy.)
This can last for an hour, but sometimes it’s almost a whole day. Afterwards, I seem to be perfectly fine again.
Is this something that anybody else experiences? Or is there something else going on? Everytime I go to the doctor to explain this, they don’t seem to be worried and tell me that it’s probably fine.
But fear for having this happen again (And it seems to happen quite frequently), is what is keeping me from making any commitments in terms of my life or work.
I do! I won’t cough or vomit, but there will be days when I, completely out of the blue, feel miserable as hell, close to crying, capable of nothing more than lying down. The next day I’ll feel fairly fine again. It’s kinda hard to pinpoint where these feelings are coming from though for me it feels like it’s mostly work related, as in “I don’t want to live in this capitalist hellscape” or “Why would I waste 8 hours of precious lifetime each day when I can barely function for more than 2”
Oof, that one hit home pretty hard.
Maybe it’s similar for me, I don’t really feel like I could do the things I like for 8 hours, let alone work for that amount of time. But you would expect a more constant feeling of dread in those cases, not really random moments like this. But perhaps I’m wrong.
How do you deal with it? Have you found anything that helps?
For me, meditation seems to help it a bit with noticing my feelings/body, but I still can’t distinguish between a lot of sensations. While other people I know can even tell what specific meal they want based on what ‘kind’ of hunger they feel.