i honestly think mine was sometime in 8th grade when i realized that i didn’t just admire this guy, i wanted to go out with him.
i got jealous when he jokingly flirted with guys, but at the same time hoped that he was hinting that he was queer and not just joking around.
In some definitions, the distinction between pansexuality and bisexuality is how that attraction is felt.
Through this lens, for pansexual folk, gender doesn’t come in to the feeling of attraction. Attraction is attraction irrelevant of gender.
Bisexuality under this same definition is attraction to more than one gender, where gender plays a part in how the attraction is experienced
i tend to feel more warmth in my face with a man and greatly admire him but more warmth in my heart with a woman and want to impress her, be close with her, etc, i think bisexual would be correct?
this was helpful btw!