I am a few hours away from ending my life, wanted to tell all who subscribed and thought my little art project was neat a big thank you. You all brought me joy in a fun project I had. I was recovering from my 4th concussion when I was most active here, these images I created were helping me heal and express myself when I couldn’t work.
I felt I could contribute something to a budding community on the fediverse. It helped tremendously in my recovery having some direction and goals.
Today my story comes to a close, I’m drinking myself to death along with a couple sleeping meds and ibuprofen bc it’s what I have handy. I was going to turn my life around working as a life insurance salesman. However it required so much upfront cost to get started than I had available. I had put all my eggs in one basket. I cannot afford rent today. I’ve let down my two roommates, my wonderful girlfriend who believed in a shared future together, and my daughter who has 11 more years to work out with her mother.
Fuck capitalism, fuck Trump and his entire cabinet along with the GOP, fuck the United States of America.
Listen to some Rush (hemispheres specifically) for me and punch some Nazis.
Long love the fediverse, long live you all here.
Love, Rebels_Droppin (Logan)
Just stop. Take a breath. You’ve only got a couple of dozen of years to be alive, and all of eternity to be dead. There’s no rush to make a decision you can’t undo.
Give yourself time to take a step back from your pain. Eat a good meal and distract yourself with your favorite show or game or person. Take time to heal. If that means putting the rest of your life on hold, do it. No one wants you dead, and there are amazingly good things waiting for you if you can pick yourself up and get through this.