I am a few hours away from ending my life, wanted to tell all who subscribed and thought my little art project was neat a big thank you. You all brought me joy in a fun project I had. I was recovering from my 4th concussion when I was most active here, these images I created were helping me heal and express myself when I couldn’t work.
I felt I could contribute something to a budding community on the fediverse. It helped tremendously in my recovery having some direction and goals.
Today my story comes to a close, I’m drinking myself to death along with a couple sleeping meds and ibuprofen bc it’s what I have handy. I was going to turn my life around working as a life insurance salesman. However it required so much upfront cost to get started than I had available. I had put all my eggs in one basket. I cannot afford rent today. I’ve let down my two roommates, my wonderful girlfriend who believed in a shared future together, and my daughter who has 11 more years to work out with her mother.
Fuck capitalism, fuck Trump and his entire cabinet along with the GOP, fuck the United States of America.
Listen to some Rush (hemispheres specifically) for me and punch some Nazis.
Long love the fediverse, long live you all here.
Love, Rebels_Droppin (Logan)
Dude please don’t at least for your child, she will always be better off with you around.
This video has kept me going sometimes when nothing else will
Hey Logan don’t let that voice get to you. I was also in the position where it seemed like it would be the best option to just end it. It does change, like simply can’t keep being bad. When life gets me real down, I tell myself “this too shall pass, it might pass like a kidney stone, but it will pass”
Life can and will be good once again. I know you don’t know me, but you must believe me <3.
If you want to, please write me a message and we can chat a little^^ I don’t mind an info dump or two and a few rants.
Love kamilla^^
Hey it’s 11 hours later, just wanting to check up on you. Hope you are well.
Don’t let the GoP win, those fuckers aren’t worth an in grown pubic hair. Stay and fight back. It’s not easy, but we’re the ones that have to get it done.
Don’t ever let those fuckers win. You’re better than they’ll ever be.
Your daughter needs you, Logan. Stay here for her and for us!
Please, don’t.
Stay with us.
Hey dude. I don’t know you at all but I can promise you it gets better. Not right away. And not without effort on your behalf but it can get better.
Your little girl won’t understand. She’s going to have questions for the rest of her life that she can’t ask because you won’t be around to answer them.
I was right where you are right now a couple years ago. I’m talking blitzed out of my mind sitting on the edge of a bridge ready to jump.
I completely understand wanting to check out. I’ve been there. But the ones who love you will never recover.
I’ve seen too many peoples lives permanently change forever because someone close to them killed themselves.
Please don’t do it. Go hug your daughter and make sure she grows up feeling safe and loves.
Dude, depressions, concusions, etc are all a bitch, no doubt.
What keeps me going is knowing I’ll die one day anyway. It’s not like I have to do this forever.
I enjoyed your posts. Even found you on pixelfed (or was it loops?)
Idk man, I don’t know what to say. I hope you don’t follow-through but I also know my comment won’t change that.
You have a wonderful girlfriend so you’re already winning. Get a hug from her and go face the consequences with your roommates. It sucks but you’ll win in the end.
Get a crappy job for now and bear through it for a few months.
If they kick you out then your free. It sucks being homeless but you get to come back from Rock bottom on your own terms.
Get a pass to a 24 hour gym where you can take showers and even kill a lot of down time by working out and improving yourself.
But once it’s over it’s over and your legacy will not be good
Take everybody’s advice and make your legacy awesome!
I survived 3 cancers and 2 amputations. Trust me, it gets better.
Just stop. Take a breath. You’ve only got a couple of dozen of years to be alive, and all of eternity to be dead. There’s no rush to make a decision you can’t undo.
Give yourself time to take a step back from your pain. Eat a good meal and distract yourself with your favorite show or game or person. Take time to heal. If that means putting the rest of your life on hold, do it. No one wants you dead, and there are amazingly good things waiting for you if you can pick yourself up and get through this.
Hey bud. You got to me on one of the worst days of my life. But I am not choosing to end it. Go take a nice shower, a walk outside. There is a lot to finish here in life. The best thing we can do to combat the state of the world is be the change we wish to see in it. I. Taking ourselves out just makes the world worse.
Living is terrifying. It is the scariest thing anyone does. But you will find the strength you need to keep going and change your life for the better. And there will be so many people who will be thankful you did.
I really, really hoped that you changed your mind, but
Listen to some Rush (hemispheres specifically) for me and punch some Nazis.
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Logan, please don’t leave the world we share. I don’t know you but I believe you are worthy and capable of recovery. I believe everyone is. Please call the helpline, and live, if not for me or you, then for your loved ones; your daughter, your SO, your friends.
The road to healing will be a long one. Stay the course. You’ve made it this far, and it’s just a bit further now. I’m on your side.
Killing yourself takes courage but maybe stick around? You can always do it some other time
