I regret being a child with hobbies like every other child. Every hobby was some stupid Exquisite Talent that I had to be filmed and shoved down everyone’s throats for. Everything I enjoyed was only for the smartest intellectuals and I had to be filmed and interviewed for that as well. I literally was the equivalent of Elon Musk and Trump, everyone was so tired of hearing about what random mundane thing I accomplished this time. But I was also the asshole for wanting to be normal as I’m passing up a rare privilege everyone else wished they had.
I also regret losing interest in everything and being a literal zombie staring at walls when I wasn’t sleeping as that was proof I had some stupid disorder and needed help. I really should have just been euthanized instead. All lives do not matter.
Work with a prodigy in a field of your choice. There’s always somebody better. Pretty soon everything you do appears mediocre.
I am mediocre at everything I do. Society views it as the best thing to ever exist. Just doing the thing at all feels horrible.
I’m not getting you. On one hand you say you’re like Elon musk and trump and everyone is interested in what you do next, and in the other, you say you’re mediocre. Maybe you should elaborate on your disorder so I know where you’re coming from.
I said they were sick of having everything I did shoved down their throats. I was bad at everything and everyone agreed. I did not deserve the attention. I was misdiagnosed, I don’t have that shit, and at this point I don’t even believe in it. No one has that shit, it was invented as an excuse for the nazis to euthanize inconvenient kids who had no disorder.
Ok. So this is just a rant then. Hope things work out then.