I know from firsthand experience that I can trick myself into feeling better for a little while. However, I have problems that can’t be solved, and when reality comes into conflict with me feeling better, it makes everything worse than when I started. I was in therapy for a year, my medications just get more numerous and higher dosages, for fucking what. The fact is, everything in my life has just been getting worse and worse, despite and in some cases because of everything I’ve tried to do to make it better. I just wish someone cared enough about me to euthanize me like people do their beloved pets.