I’ve been slamming it into walls and hurling it at the ground this past week. I’m also dying if it manages to fall in one of the countless holes in the wall as well. I’ll break everything I own and cut myself up in the process. My hands and arms are so sore but I still make it to work.

  • residentoflaniakea@discuss.tchncs.de
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    15 hours ago

    You seem to be in a state of crisis. The Internet mightn’t be the best place to reach out for support, but support is what you need. Check in your location for a free help line (perhaps suicide hotline).

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      8 hours ago

      I miss anonymous vent websites. They were a lot more helpful than trying to get some random person to understand me. Just. Getting it off my chest so it can come back and haunt my life again later.

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    17 hours ago

    Every day I imagine putting my phone in the toilet :(

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    18 hours ago

    Honestly, please seek help. I can understand that you may go through a tough phase of your life, but I’m sure it’s not all bad. Please reach out to a local suicide prevention hotline or directly talk to a medical professional. Hurting yourself is not the right approach.

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      8 hours ago

      Yeah I’ve been abusing my belongings and regretting it. I just see red and nothing else.

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        6 hours ago

        What happened happened, but try to look forwards rather than backwards! Try to have a session with a professional to better understand for yourself what causes that mood and to work out some strategies to better cope with it. I’m sure it can be hard to make that first step but I’m sure it will pay out in the longterm.

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    21 hours ago

    One of these days I’ll damage an item at work or end up hurting someone whose life actually matters