it’s very irritating. does anyone else experience this? it’s just looming for a week ahead of time, i’m thinking about it every day, it’s practically a pall upon my shoulders that i’m going fucking apple picking with family tomorrow
sick of it. i assume this is a manifestation of the schedule interruption thing?
I recently learned about Pathological Demand Avoidance - it’s been helpful as a framework for me to understand some of my own frequent experiences in this area. Particularly in the instances when it’s all internal: a goal I’ve set or a promise I’ve made to myself can often become the one thing I will avoid at all costs for no apparent reason. Between PDA and just general executive dysfunction (yayy AuDHD), learning about these things helps me understand why it can be so unbelievably hard for me to get anything done sometimes. Still sucks, but it makes more sense :)