I regret being a child with hobbies like every other child. Every hobby was some stupid Exquisite Talent that I had to be filmed and shoved down everyone’s throats for. Everything I enjoyed was only for the smartest intellectuals and I had to be filmed and interviewed for that as well. I literally was the equivalent of Elon Musk and Trump, everyone was so tired of hearing about what random mundane thing I accomplished this time. But I was also the asshole for wanting to be normal as I’m passing up a rare privilege everyone else wished they had.
I also regret losing interest in everything and being a literal zombie staring at walls when I wasn’t sleeping as that was proof I had some stupid disorder and needed help. I really should have just been euthanized instead. All lives do not matter.
I wish I had never met anyone so I could comfortably disappear without hurting them. I hate that they actually like me. I hate that my boyfriend loves me. He deserves a better woman. An actual human woman instead of dead weight pretending to be human. I really should have died at birth.
Damn, that is one hell of a vent.
Not going to try and counter any of it, unless you want that, but I see your pain, and sympathize.