The longer I live, the more I’ll need to fight to just be a human being. What is the point of living if I’m only going to be seen exclusively as That Shit? I envy all the actual people who get to be actual human beings. Like, Toby Fox made those popular games, but if that were me, that stupid disorder made the game. It’s popular because that stupid shit made me talented and smart. But if I lost interest in making games, that stupid shit made me uninterested. Just fucking eradicate that stupid fake shit already. Everyone is suffering from something with an actual name, definition, and treatment. That stupid puzzle piece shit is only an excuse to give up on children not worth anyone’s time. It’s fucking fake and it destroys lives before they can even start.
I’m tired of everything I do being trying to be grown. At 26 years old, I’m a little kid trying to be mature and it’s so funny. I envy the actual people who don’t have family gawking and laughing at them for showering and cooking.
I think I can empathize with you to some degree on this. I’m the baby of both my extended families, so even though I’m now middle-aged, there’s always a condescending tone when I deal with them. You never get away from that stigma. I try to remember that that is a ‘them’ problem, not a ‘me’ problem.
If it’s any consolation, no adult knows what the fuck they are doing. There’s are those who admit that, and those who lie. We’re all just winging it.
Just keep doing the best you can, and don’t let the bastards grind you down.
Also, if you’re able, consider getting some counseling. It usually makes a world of difference. Stay strong.