I made a therapy appointment

Tl;dr: I asked a girl out :)

I met a girl in a flight and thought we got along well, but she was only in a layover flight while I was in the last flight of my trip. Still, we kept in touch, and she’s apparently coming to my city for a few days in two weeks.

So I did something I had never done before (even though I’ve been in a few relationships before) and asked her out! She said “maybe” (her trip was already planned and she is busy and staying with some friends, she seemed genuinely sorry) so in two weeks I may have a date :)

It’s a public holiday today in South Africa. (Good Friday)

So I came up with a cheeky dad joke

“What holiday is it? Workers day? Freedom day?”

“Good Friday”

“Every Friday is a good Friday”

I got two chuckles

I got some chickens.

I finally progressed to 4 reps of 45kg dumbbell overhead press.

I purchased a new (to me) car the other day. Despite my age, this is the first time I’ve done this all on my own and I’m geeked over my credit score. ☺️

I fixed my refrigerator. 2 months ago I was changing the filter, and I was too lazy to turn off the water first, so the pressure was too high and it didn’t seat properly. When I turned it, I broke the filter receptacle. I called Samsung, and they said they’ll fix it, but they can’t tell me how much it will cost until they make the work order, and at that point I can’t cancel it if it’s too expensive. I asked if they could ballpark, like $100 or $1000. They said they couldn’t. So I told them to go fuck themselves. I ordered the part on Amazon for $60. I had to disassemble a decent amount of the refrigerator to get to the part. But I did it! I swapped out the part and everything works perfectly. All in all, it took about 2 hours. There were multiple videos on the internet on how to do it.

Fuck Samsung.

I fixed a boot issue from the grub command line for the first time.

Restarted my show / podcast yesterday, 1 year after losing my co-host (and best friend) to cancer. Moving forward, without forgetting him.

Some would see this as a big step. It’s one of the hundreds of things that I’ve been doing to move forward…

I published the first chapter of a fanfiction and someone already liked it.

This week has been rough for me. My nervous system is fucked up for various reasons.

Normally I drink one cup of coffee per day. But I had an Uber passenger whom I took to his job at a convenience store. He said “Can I offer you some coffee?” so I came in and grabbed a cup (my second for the day).

That was Monday evening.

I was then awake until wednesday night. I could not catch a fucking wink of sleep for that whole time.

What the fuck, brain??

Well, Tuesday and Wednesday I obviously didn’t drive, because I’m not going to put my passengers in that situation, of having a sleep deprived Uber driver.

Finally Wednesday I realized how I could knock myself out. I cooked a big thing of pasta and ate a ton of it, and sure enough having a big meal knocked me out.

Fucked up, but I’m proud that (a) I didn’t risk my passengers’ safety by giving in to the temptation to drive (I really need the money so it was tempting), and (b) found a way to fall asleep finally.

I know this story doesn’t make sense. I really wish the way my brain worked made sense. It would make life so much easier.

I’ve got a 5(A) on my math(algebra+geometry) exam. Before that I’ve always had a 4(B). I’m very proud of myself :)

European driving license after driving in my home country for over 20 years.

I helped a stranger at Costco load up a giant grill into his truck. I have no idea how he would have managed it on his own.

Managed to get myself referred to a psychiatrist/psychotherapists for my complex issues after having previously done counselling/CBT with very little help in effectiveness of my emotional wellbeing due to having a complex past. Honestly can’t really believe it’s taken for me to get health insurance to be able to get help for it after having tried to get help via state healthcare but they’re entirely useless and only offer counselling/cbt within short terms and discharge you if they can’t help you anymore ;-;

It’s been such a slow process and it’s had a huge effect on my university education negatively, due to it but honestly I’ve haven’t felt more optimistic than ever tbh despite having days where it does get difficult.