The ultimate origin is that i bought a cheap hose. Pulled it out of the shed and hooked it to the tap without untangling it. Tried to water the garden with the sprayer attachment and the water would just stop after a second. Would give the hose a hearty snap to try and free it up but the wave would never travel back as far as the kink. Had to walk back and straighten it out then run back to the sprayer because fixing the kink caused it to start spraying everywhere.

Alas, I am mostly kinkless.

I can play around with most things if a partner has a kink, but the closest I come to a real kink is fancy underwear. Not even specifically kinky underwear like crotchless panties or whatever. Just pretty panties and bras in women.

I get more thrill from that than outright nudity by itself. Didn’t when I was younger, they were both very much arousing, and in equal measure. But I worked as a nurse’s assistant and took a lot of art classes, so nudity lost the ability to be arousing by itself. There has to be a sexual connotation to the notify nudity for it to flip the switch for arousal instead of just curiosity or appreciation.

But, I can indeed trace that enjoyment to a single event.

Way back, and I won’t mention specific ages because people are assholes, but when I was young; I had only seen the usual panties that you might run into as a kid. Plain cotton, nothing beyond maybe a wonder woman symbol, or my mom’s, which was not a sexual thing for sure lol.

But as puberty was coming along, I had a brief encounter (puns fully intended) with a young lady that was a bit out of the norm. She had these lacy, bright blue panties on, and (as I discovered a bit later) a matching bra. Who knew girls could have cool underwear like that? I didn’t! I hadn’t run across playboy or the like yet, and had never paid attention to the women’s section of catalogs when flipping through such things.

This eye opener made me very much enjoy seeing girls in their underwear, and made it something that was awesome in itself rather than as a sign I was about to enjoy more than that.

But, it isn’t a fetish level thing at all. I don’t require it to enjoy sex, and It’s only when someone I’m interested in is wearing them that it matters. An established partner can walk in naked and my mind doesn’t immediately turn to sex. But let my wife walk in in her fancy panties? Oh yeah, I’m happy and hoping it can turn into sex. It usually does lol, she knows I enjoy it, so it’s usually a sign she’s up for fun to begin with if she’s showing off.

But that first girl? Despite it being a one time thing, I can remember every second of it, including the way my fingers rasped over the blue lace. Full sensory memory there.

No, actually. As far back as I can remember my first fantasies were about force, or giving up, power more than anything else. I early was able to orgasm, maybe 7 or so and really cannot remember any fantasies that did not involve D/s. It bothered me for a long time as I thought it some sort of immature sexuality, thought I needed to grow into my adult woman sexuality and enjoy taking charge myself, that was what was shown as “sexy” in popular culture and when that never happened I was frustrated, felt stuck, and not sexy. Was around 40 when I figured out I never judged anyone else for their sexual preferences, and that I needed to give myself the same consideration, and found guys who liked sexual submissiveness, some guys are into that and not abusive at all. Also figured out that part of what bothered me was that I considered submissive as “passive” and that’s not true at all either. I enjoy being active, just directed or forced. Even like fighting back and losing. It’s not passive at all.

So basically no, but it’s been a journey anyway.

Raven from Teen Titans, Azula from Avatar, Shego from Kim Possible. I think you get the point.

Maybe not a kink per se but ever since seeing the music video for Criminal by Fiona Apple in the 90s, I’ve had a thing for girls that look like her in that video.

One that I remember, it at least when I first realized it turned me on anyway, was when a woman and her girlfriend attempted to sexual assault me. I was able to get away but I was also crazy aroused.

I have a huge kink for CNC with a woman as the aggressor now.

Looking through a mail order catalog and going into the ladies swimwear section awoke something in me. Also the first time I tried wearing a speedo, it gave me an instant erection.

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