988 probably got me on a list. this literally is like the thirteenth week in a row where I’ve called them at least three times. I’m so ready to just die already. I’m deteriorating. I will never “recover”. I was raised to fail and be the scum beneath everyone’s feet. I give up. My abusers won. I don’t want to be a game designer anymore. I don’t want to be an amazon manager anymore. I don’t want to be me anymore. I don’t want to be. I should have died at birth and waking up every day is a selfish decision to myself and everyone in my life. I need to fix my mother’s mistake and die now. I can’t do this anymore.
I’m proof that you should never have children if you’re not 100% sure your want them. Seriously. I really can’t take it anymore. Why does every way out have a chance of surviving and living a worse life
988 probably got me on a list. this literally is like the thirteenth week in a row where I’ve called them at least three times. I’m so ready to just die already. I’m deteriorating. I will never “recover”. I was raised to fail and be the scum beneath everyone’s feet. I give up. My abusers won. I don’t want to be a game designer anymore. I don’t want to be an amazon manager anymore. I don’t want to be me anymore. I don’t want to be. I should have died at birth and waking up every day is a selfish decision to myself and everyone in my life. I need to fix my mother’s mistake and die now. I can’t do this anymore.
I’m proof that you should never have children if you’re not 100% sure your want them. Seriously. I really can’t take it anymore. Why does every way out have a chance of surviving and living a worse life