• You will only be as loved as much as you qualify for free money or have some “talent” that generates money.

  • Your family will hate you either way, for being a burden that can’t do anything for itself. 9 times out of 10 they could have taught you how to be independent but assumed you couldn’t do anything because of some stupid disorder label.

  • Wanting to be independent makes you ungrateful for their help. These people are helping, with their own time and money from their own pocket, and you push it away?

  • But being dependent, as mentioned earlier, makes you a burden and everyone just wishes you would just go away already.

  • Mentally disabled people are only ever seen as jokes. You could be a child inexperienced with life or attracted to things for children because you’re literally a growing child, but your family will bully you for being [r word]. So, yeah, liking My Little Pony and Sonic the Hedgehog as a teen is funny, but so is liking anything aimed at teenagers.

  • You will watch everyone else live real lives, and the closest thing you get to a real life is daydreaming about it.

  • Everyone else can be clean and comfortable, but you taking a shower is funny. You wanting fun fashion is funny, you’re supposed to know your place wearing hand me downs and bargain tees while smelling like week old body odor. Trying to be clean is funny.

  • However, being stinky is a problem and everyone in your family wants you gone. They assume a disorder is why you smell bad, and not the fact they literally bullied you into not showering, and trying to hide your period as much as possible. All this while you feel grubby and itchy, and you just need to deal with it because having soap bought for you is just too funny that your parents never buy it.

  • Everyone assumes the mentally disabled are extremely spoiled, and every single issue you have is a petty little non issue. The same people ridiculing you for smelling bad are the same people calling you spoiled for complaining about being unable to shower. You’re lazy and selfish for not using deodorant, but you’re spoiled and entitled for asking for it and never getting any.

  • Everyone in your life assumes your stunted growth is only because of a disorder, and you’ll end up in a group home if you’re not profitable. In the home, you’ll never be comfortable, as all the staff only want to look at their phones.

  • You will smell way worse than you did before, especially after all the accidents you’ve had being unable to use a toilet at home. And wanting to use the toilet makes you spoiled and entitled. You’re gross for soiling yourself, and spoiled for not wanting to soil yourself. You’re gross for showering with water or not at all and spoiled for asking for soap. You are always the problem.

  • The staff ridicule and bully you just like your family did, if not worse. You will never experience real love or the happiness you had when you were three. Oh, right, you’ll most likely be fixated on children’s media you enjoyed when your life peaked in preschool, which everyone in your life will continue to bully you for.

  • You most likely could have grown, worked, and been independent, but were never given the chance. And for those who actually couldn’t, they live a life worse than purgatory until they die.

If these people can’t just live real lives then they deserve actually therapeutic happy lives, full stop. What is the point of living a life where you literally only eat prison food and sleep while watching Cocomelon? Literally, a life where the staff give you drugs to make you sleep and that’s your life. Eating gross food like mashed potatoes that had to be sliced with a fork and knife and meatloaf that smelled like dog vomit and had to be eaten with a spoon, and sleeping. I’ve seen this shit first hand, where decently bright happy children are brutally abused into becoming living corpses whose minds were murdered when they were babies.

There’s no excuse for why this is allowed.

  • LH0ezVTEnglish
    1·
    3 days ago

    Let me say it plainly, you have been cheated out of growing up. Parents, teachers, they all have a duty to care for people in their, well, care. That is pretty fucked up.

    I was the weird kid once, I’m still a weird adult, but I was super lucky to have family and teachers that cared. I’ve seen lots of people with lots of mental issues that “turned out fine”, whatever that might be. Your experience is not the norm. I have a hard time imagining what went on in your parents’ heads. Some people are just genuinely bad people, I am sorry that you had to grow up with those.

    You know what sounds good? You seem to move from the self-hate towards hating those who caused you harm. Still not the best state of mind, but a lot better, trust me.

    Just from the random rant you post here, you don’t seem to be too dumb. Coherent sentences and all that. It’s a low bar, I know, but I’m not making fun of you, there are millions of people around you who would not clear it. Trust me, there are people that would consider stacking the shelves at the supermarket an intellectual challenge.

    So, yeah. The past is only going to get you so far. You’re still here, for whatever reason you haven’t jumped off a bridge yet. This is going to sound like “don’t be sad, lol”. But you’re (probably) young, seem to be physically mostly ok, and you’re not dumb. Maybe, every now and then, spend some time thinking about what to do with that. They say the best revenge is a life well lived.

  • inb4_FoundTheVegan@lemmy.worldMEnglish
    6·
    6 days ago

    Reddit banned me for it, but I believe if these people can’t just live real lives or actually therapeutic happy lives then they should die.

    Well, to be honest as a mod for the community, I do feel like it’s warranted since this falls under hate speech against the disabled. While this doesn’t read like a manifesto for harm but more of someone who has been neglected and harmed by the systems you describe. However that doesn’t change the fact that is calling for others to die. I am considering removing this post, but I don’t want to do so without a discussion of where you are coming from first.

    Fundamentally what you are describing is eugenics, Hitler and the Nazi party spoke of ending the lives of “burdensome lives” and “useless eaters”, which is categorically abhorrent. I abundantly agree that the facilities for housing and care of group homes is woefully inadequate and a silent cruel epidemic that most either don’t know of, or willfully ignore. It’s an abhorrent, tragic and unacceptable facet of our civilization that I hope is improved with time and legislation.

    Having said that, advocating for any particular group to die is always 100% not okay. An argument for the right to choose euthanasia isn’t the same as arguing to inflict it upon others. So I don’t want to remove this since it feels like an honest vent, BUT I do need the language be altered away from “They’re all basically living corpses” and “they should die”.

    It’s hate speech. Arguments for their death is not acceptable here.

    • Like the wind...OPEnglish
      3·
      6 days ago

      These people were very lively children who were abused into mindless zombies. Every aspect of who they were was eradicated, just leaving a husk. I’ve watched people deteriorate in real time, from happy children to teenage husks, and the abuse is so bad, so unspeakable and incredibly isolating that simply not living is much better. The average therapist wouldn’t have any knowledge of these experiences, and they are so absurd that they’d think the child is lying.

      They’d think the kid lied that they weren’t allowed to do any schoolwork and had to bring it all home, solely because they ate at home and didn’t bring breakfast to Eat At School, and the school breakfast is “french toast” that smells like cheap drain cleaner and is so mushy you need to use a spoon to eat it. That they spent the whole school day in the cafeteria with the principal, security guards, and five other staff members staring at them demanding they eat that slop. Real example by the way, ever since that I always would have a breakfast or lunch item.

      They’d think the kid is lying about being ridiculed for an entire day for having a cold that caused a deeper voice, where all the staff in the building was so fake offended at their “attitude”. No one would believe that a kid would be forced to be a bully’s “friend” and be stuck in a textbook narcissistic relationship without any way out. Once again, my experiences, which aren’t even as bad as treatment of the people who lived in the residential facility. I was lucky to attend that prison like “school”.

      But when a child or adult has weird and severe triggers like breakfast food, live action movies, or being in the same place for over 15 minutes; refuses to talk to anyone at all; or is incredibly sensitive to the smallest issues, everyone assumes it’s the disability and not the decades of abuse they went through on top of bullying by family, ridicule from the public who view them on the same level as cockroaches, and zero people who will ever listen, take them seriously, or even recognize them as a human being. I’m not saying I want these people dead, I’m saying that these cruel experiences and incredibly sad lives are exponentially worse than death. We basically still have eugenics, but slower and infinitely more painful, physically and mentally.

      Whatever you know about these facilities, it’s 100 times worse. I’ve mentioned before most of these people could have been educated and they could have grown, but they’re “educated” with free printouts and YouTube videos while being emotionally abused, and physically abused if they respond to the trauma. They completely stagnate and are robbed of a life, like a milder version of the case of Genie Wiley, where the abuse is called “help”.

      Realistically, nothing will change. The poorly phrased parts are a result of my frustration. Why are these people’s only choices death and a life worse than death? It’s horrible.

      • inb4_FoundTheVegan@lemmy.worldMEnglish
        3·
        6 days ago

        We basically still have eugenics, but slower and infinitely more painful, physically and mentally.

        I wish you were wrong but fundamentally you’re not. I know my meager “I am sorry you have gone through all that” isn’t worth much, but I am.

        The poorly phrased parts are a result of my frustration.

        I understand completely and I appreciate your clarifications. This post won’t be removed and neither will any like it. Venting about the system that produces trauma for you and other is a legitimate use of this community. I will ask you to please try and steer away from death talk, but any amount of light that can be shown on this systemic problem is always a good thing.

        I hope talking about it helps. Go in peace friend, I pray and wish you the best.